Thursday, 3 October 2013
So L asked me a question which got me thinking. Am I really that strong about this whole dying thing?
So I made myself a quick list of questions
Do I want to die?
Do I accept I am dying?
Do I wish it was different?
Am I sad?
Do I regret things?
That is harder. Everyone regrets things. But the mistakes I have made have shaped me as the person I am now. And I am happy with the person I am now. Content. So, regretting things that I can't change is a waste of time, really.
Do I want to go back and change things?
Having been given a timeframe has enabled me to focus on the present. Dwelling in the past is just wasting precious minutes. Planning for the future is not an option. So living every minute as it comes is the only way really.
Does that make me strong?
Do yourselves a favour. Stop what you're doing, right now. Put yourselves in my position. If you only had a few months left to live, what would you do right now to be content in the present?
Then just go ahead and do it.