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Sunday 19 January 2014


Services for Charlotte Bevan are private. To pay respects to Charlotte's family, please leave messages at this online memorial site:


The family has asked that donations, if desired, go to Charlotte's Helix, an international project in her name, for more information please visit the Helix website.

Monday 13 January 2014

Charlotte Bevan

Charlotte Bevan died today.

Recently, Charlotte said:


We're not at all sure of that, Charlotte. Not at the moment.

Now, we weep.


Sunday 12 January 2014


Our dear Charlotte never shies away from difficult topics. She would not want her friends to tiptoe around on this one. She announced her terminal cancer diagnosis and then moved forward living each day in its turn. She told me she’d deal with it when she had to. Now, she is in her last days.

As much as we all would like to do something or say something to change the inevitable I am reminded of the advice Charlotte gives most often and we all need most now: “breathe.”

And then, we all know, she would laugh at all the drama and scold the dogs for barking.

With Charlotte’s family in my heart and thoughts today,


Sunday 5 January 2014

Oh Tim

What a long night. The Oramorph had passed it's sell by date and gone over. Unfortunately, it took Chrissy three goes before he got there with a cocktail of other drugs to calm me down and send me off to sleep.

I missed Tim. I missed Mickey. I missed my girls. I just yearned for Chrissy never to leave my side.

I wanted my Mum.

I was too tired to cry but too tired not to. I wept tearlessly for nearly an hour. And tearfully for nearly another.

And then I slept.

I still want my Mummy though. 

Saturday 4 January 2014

With overwhelming sadness

I announce that Mickey has taken Tim to the airport and we have said our fond farewells. I miss him so much already and, although looking forward to seeing Mickey next weekend, I am so sad that this part of my life is now over.