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Wednesday 4 December 2013

I hate the world today. I went to sleep crying because I was still here a and woke two hours later still crying. Because I wasn't waking from a nightmare.

HWISO told me yesterday that he just couldn't cope with me at home. I know he didn't really mean it and I know my girls haven't been to see me because it is all too scary and horrid and I beg them to stay away but I miss them so.

Being here on my own so much has really opened the floodgates and I have cried a lot. I cried just now when I got an email from Alex saying she was coming today. I cried for two hours when HWISO left Yesterday as I knew I wouldn't see him for two days

I don't look at my best just now. 

1 comment:

  1. Oh, sweetie, I wish life wasn't being such a sucky, sucky b#@^%&$d to you right now. I'm kicking tree stumps and pounding the stuffing out of pillows on your behalf. Sending you lots of love and zillions of cyber hugs and kisses. Martine xoxoxoxoxo