However, this time I am seriously angry. I am angry that it is back. I am angry at the effect it is having on my family. I am angry at the waste of time and energy that it is going to take to fight it and I am livid, incandescent, fuming and spitting tacks about losing my hair again.
There, I've said it. I really mind about losing my hair. I am not a vain person so it is not how I look that bothers me. It is just that it is the FINAL STRAW.
Well, not quite perhaps. The FS came quite early this time. It came when I was weighed before my operation. My BMI was calculate at 24.9 and I was told I was in the overweight category.
So I started on a long rant. Firstly at 5ft 11 (and a smidge), I was well outside the average height range and that BMI is an area, not a volume, measurement and that 24.9 was in the "normal" weight range anyway so what on earth was the (beleaguered, overworked, underpaid) nurse doing saying this to me? Words like "population screen", "average" "non-clincial measure" flew like Harry Potter spells from my (by then) forked tongue and a red mist of righteous indignation filled Ward F5 ("Surgical").
Now, I know this was not the nurse's fault. But heck and tarnation, what is the world coming to that our clinicians are so ill-informed? Why, oh why, have we fallen into this trap of using the BMI calculator as a measure of health in clinical settings? How many pieces can I shred the "healthy eating" leaflet into? (Apparently, everyone who is overweight is given a healthy eating plan and No, just because I don't think I am overweight, does not mean I don't get one. The computer says I am overweight and I therefore need to read the leaflet carefully, take more exercise and make sure I eat 5 portions of fruit and veg a day).
However, I have found a new BMI calculator website which seems to take height differences into account. Even when I added 20lbs to my actual weight and came out with a BMI of 27.2, it told me that this was within the normal weight range for someone OF MY HEIGHT.
Hurrah. At last a non-tallist BMI calculator. Perhaps I should recommend it to the NHS?